Overcoming Narcissistic Abuse Flashbacks And Finding Presence
Narcissistic abuse remains lodged in a person’s body and soul as trauma. At the time of the abuse, the target of narcissism did not have the capacity to process it, since their mental faculties and willpower were compromised.
The source of the abuse is now gone. This shame-and-fear-based energy finally has a chance to bubble to the surface. It wants your Higher Self (your consciousness, your God-Self) to recognise it, to legitimise it, and finally, to provide it space where it can be expressed. This means being present with it, and allowing it to roam and play itself out in Your presence. ‘Your’ is in capital letters here because it represents not your mind or your ego, but the ‘you’ which lies beyond your mind.
To embrace your trauma is to exist in a state of spaciousness and intensity the likes of which you have never experienced. During a flashback, look for the intensity and the sensations which accompany it in your body. Be alert, but relax your body. Become the intensity. Surrender to the agony of what you are experiencing in this moment. Look directly into this wave from the past. Go into it. Do this by directing all of your focus into it, gently brushing aside your thoughts and conflicting instincts.
If you can take the leap of faith, your consciousness will grow, and your capacity to handle intensity will increase. This is how metamorphosis works. Before you can simply ‘be present’, you need to be present with what is getting in the way of that. Metamorphosis is a process where an organism’s state of being takes on a form that never existed before. You are capable of this, and you do it through faith, courage and conscious presence in the face of terror.
Like the stages of a video game, see your trauma from narcissistic abuse as ‘levels’ which you must work through. It’s frustrating, it’s uncomfortable, it’s downright agonising for a brief moment, but once you find your way through it using surrender and focus, you can rest in the joy of your spiritual growth, and then prepare yourself for the next level. Narcissistic abuse can cripple you, or it can be the force which propels you toward your actualisation. It’s only a matter of perception and the willingness to undertake your own personal hero journey.
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